I wanted to be anywhere but where I was this morning. I went to bed last night overtired and couldn’t sleep. It was too cold for just a sheet and too warm for a duvet. When I did wake up this morning I was so tired tears came and all the why’s afterwards! Sometimes I feel there’s so much pressure to have it all together, and not enough hours in the day.
I’ve been rearranging my days this week to fit in studying. My books arrived yesterday and while I’ve been doing refresher study, I panicked if I’m to study the course in time along with everything else. I seriously don’t know how Mums do it and if you’re a working Mum you deserve triple gold stars! I often see a motivational thingy which isn’t so motivational when you think about it: ‘You have as many hours in the day as Beyonce’. Yes I do, but does she fit in that day, cleaning, washing, cooking, shopping (grocery, not clothes), errands and being your own transport, because if she did she’d really would be a superstar.
I love writing, but I’ll be the first to admit recently, it hasn’t come easily. I find it gets pushed to the end of the day when I’m tired and the words that were earlier have gone. There’s not a week goes by when I say, that’s it! Last post ever! Finding new writing material at times is difficult. Sounding like a drone is’t easy! I read blogs, I think what’s their secret? Words written aren’t how they are in your mind. Soemtimes so many thoughts fly by, I forget them before I write them. Maybe I should write less often, but I enjoy it, so I don’t.
After my tears had stopped, I’d told myself not to give up and by the time I’d done my first circuit working out this morning, I felt grounded and more in control. Never underestimate sweat. It’s your own personal supply of salt water and salt water cures everything. Well, endorphins play a bigger part and tears don’t count as they leave me drained, not energised, but you get the idea. Running, workouts, cycling, walking, yoga, being outdoors, help me sort out tangled thoughts, do to lists, feel strong, bring things back into perspective. October more than any month has the feeling of change in the air. I know what needs to be done: just do it! Schedule better and in the words of The Rock ‘FOCUS!’!
Tomorrow I find out more about the course from my tutor and the real studying begins. So I took the afternoon off, sneaked off the beach as it was warm enough and then took a trip to the zoo. It’s one of the very few places in the city that’s quiet if you don’t count the parrots squawking. And where else am I going to see a cat and flamingo side by side?
How do you deal with over tiredness? Do you find exercise helps? What’s your number 1 scheduling tip?