A lot happened in December. Saying goodbye to D has been hard. I really thought we had more time together. Looking back at his photos I can see he was ill for longer than I thought. Being around him everyday I didn’t see it as much. I really thought the new medicine would work, but I think he missed AJ and his hoomin Mama wasn’t enough.
It’s weird not having a cat around. If I honest I feel a bit lost. They were my life. Nearly 18 years all up a cat Mama. I’m okay during the day. The daylight and sunlight helps. It’s nighttime when I get back in it hits the most. No happy face greeting me at the door. No meows, purrs demanding food or a hug. The place feels empty, quiet, way too big. I wouldn’t say it was easier after AJ as I had D to distract me but it’s just as hard. With no Diesel, the reality is more in my face. I know it was his time for his next adventure. I don’t think he wanted to go. All I know is he loved life and the way I can honour him is by doing the same.
Looking back at photos this month, I thought a lot of other stuff had happened. It didn’t. I took more photos out and about making it seem like it had. December however was a month of rainbows. Continue reading “December Catch Up”
