A lot happened in December. Saying goodbye to D has been hard. I really thought we had more time together. Looking back at his photos I can see he was ill for longer than I thought. Being around him everyday I didn’t see it as much. I really thought the new medicine would work, but I think he missed AJ and his hoomin Mama wasn’t enough.
It’s weird not having a cat around. If I honest I feel a bit lost. They were my life. Nearly 18 years all up a cat Mama. I’m okay during the day. The daylight and sunlight helps. It’s nighttime when I get back in it hits the most. No happy face greeting me at the door. No meows, purrs demanding food or a hug. The place feels empty, quiet, way too big. I wouldn’t say it was easier after AJ as I had D to distract me but it’s just as hard. With no Diesel, the reality is more in my face. I know it was his time for his next adventure. I don’t think he wanted to go. All I know is he loved life and the way I can honour him is by doing the same.
Looking back at photos this month, I thought a lot of other stuff had happened. It didn’t. I took more photos out and about making it seem like it had. December however was a month of rainbows. Continue reading “December Catch Up”
This past Wednesday in my arms I said my last see you later to Mr D, aka Diesel. My cheeky, happy go lucky ray of sunshine. He hadn’t been well for a few years, yet all his illnesses were overshadowed by Angelous’s. I think he had the same tummy issues as Angelous however due to his age when realised the vet advised against a biopsy. The last few months the signs were there, I didn’t see or didn’t want to see them. The last week and a bit he stopped wanting to eat then he withdrew from life, which hurt as he loved life.
He had 2 speeds. All out or fast asleep! Anything new that came into the house had to be inspected. He loved playing, loved annoying his bother who he adored. You could tell by how he followed him around. They had so many chases and play fights, never drawing blood. He loved hugs, had a meow just for a hug. He talked so much! Let me know loudly when it was breakfast or dinner time, he answered me back, he chirped, meurred, purred when it was hug time. For someone so tiny his headbutts could knock you off balance. If he didn’t like something he let you know loudly! He hated car journeys above 95kmph. He started singing in protest Continue reading “See You Later Diesel!”
I have no idea how to start this post. I said my final see you later in my arms to Mr Aj aka Angelous Sunday 10th February.
I’d like to say he went peacefully in my arms, but I think he had a seizure. A little over 3 weeks ago his behaviour changed. I don’t know if it was a seizure or age related. He started not being able to see properly, then he started walked around with his head so low he couldn’t see in front of him. He wouldn’t rest from the Thursday before he went. The only time he did was in my arms. Something he’s never done. Continue reading “See Ya Later Mr Aj!”